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setelah lama ga ke vihara, akhirnya kemaren gua ke vihara lagi. nyesel abis kenapa kemaren2 kalo ga kesiangan, males, ampe sakit kepala jd ga kesana. kemaren ada Dhammadesana yang cukup mengganggu kesadaran gua. makanya mau gua tulis aja, siapa tau gua lupa..

diawali dengan pertanyaan berapa lama kamu belajar agama buddha sampe akhirnya apa manfaat yang kamu dapet dari baca paritta, dan paritta apa yang kamu ngerti. setelah dipikir, gada sesuatu yang absolut yang terjadi stlh paritta dibaca, dan ga ada juga tuh paritta yang bener2 bisa dipahami artinya sampe mendetail.. ibarat tentang kaset yang diputar terus menerus kyny emang sesuai.

perenungan buat gua berikutnya adalah, secara jasmani, apa sih yang manusia bawa waktu lahir.. selaen karma (karena karma ga keliatan). ga ada. ga ada yang manusia bawa waktu lahir, dan gada juga yang dia bawa waktu meninggal. trus kenapa selama hidupnya dia membawa masalah kemana-mana? toh wkt lahir dia ga bw apa2 dan wakt meninggal pun ga bw apa2.

setelah dipikir-pikir lagi, emang bener. manusia lebih memikirkan masalah2 dalam hidupnya daripada hidup itu sendiri. hal2 kecil jadi masalah besar, yang kalo ditilik emang sbnrny tiap mslh yg bkn orang berantem emang sbnrnya bukan hal penting, semua hanya karena ego ga si? ego yang segede-gede apa tau, yang lebih “gede” dari manusia itu sndr. manusia yang sbnrny lemah banget tp egonya parah banget. gila ya? manusia yang kalo salah tetep membela diri, karena ego. ga mau minta maaf, karena ego, dan yang paling parah dan paling sering terjadi ga mau mengakui kalo dia emang salah. kadang salah itu di kita sendiri loh, bukan di orang lain. masalahnya bisa di diri kita sendiri.. it’s all about us

dan akibat egonya yang gede itu, manusia jadi egois. gua boleh salah, orang laen ga boleh.
Kenapa? kan lebih mudah ngurusin masalah sendiri, kendaliin pikiran sendiri, ucapan sendiri, perbuatan sendiri. masalah orang bukan masalah lu kok kenapa harus berbaik hati mikirin masalah orang lain? dan kenapa juga kita harus mikirin ucapan orang lain? opini orang lain gakan ngubah kita jadi lebih baik atau buruk, karena dia ga punya wewenang untuk itu. jadi opini itu gausah harus dipikirn or dibahas kan? kecuali ada sisi baiknya, ya diambil. kalo jelek buang aja. so simple. engga? kalo engga berarti masih ego yang betahta dalam diri kita

apakah dengan mengaku kita salah kita kehilangan sesuatu?
apakah dengan mengaku kalo kita tidak bisa kita jadi kehilangan sesuatu?
apakah dengan minta maaf kita kehilangan sesuatu?
apakah dengan tidak membela diri kia kehilangan sesuatu?
apakah dengan mengalah kepada orang lain kita jadi kehilangan sesuatu?

berapa sih harga manusia? egonyakah yang menentukan?

ngapain ya malem2 blm tidur aja?
1. ga ngantuk - lama2 udah si
2. mikir - besok ngapain, maen basket ga jadi, golf gajadi, tenis gajadi, nyodok lg bangkrut gr2 trisum n kejakarta mulu. tp ga nyesel. banget deh. trisum keren abis. sayang tiket yg besok disarbini udah sold out. sebel kenapa konser2 keren di april semua? dah ga punya duit nih.
3. bulan mei udah uas aja, 2 farkot, 4 ilkom, 9 farkot. sekalian mencatat nih. tempat kp blm jelas, kmrn nelepon udah ditolah aja belom2. halah2.. trus tgl 10 situlembang.. pokonamah harus jadi lah..
4. harus mulai apply2 nih, dah deket2 deadline gt
5. deadline jangka pendek (tomorrow)
- belajar steril
- kuliah
- ke ibu
- jurnal
- ingetin latpres
6. udah ah ngantuk juga yah

setelah kmrn ga ngapa2in, ternyata hari ini juga ga kalah aneh

kayanya males2an lagi jadi hal yg plg representatif

drtd kerjanya cuma bolak-balik fs-ym-forum kmb-beasiswa

halah2, hidup macam apa ini..

mandi pun belom

pdhl mestinya ngambil bahan buat bikin summary, dasar pemalas, i am the lazzy number 1

parah2

Intro: Eb Ab / Bb Ab

Eb Ab Bb
Where is the moment when we need it the most
Eb Ab Bb
You kick up the leaves and the magic is lost
Cm Eb/Bb Ab
They tell me your blue sky’s faded to grey
Eb/G Fm
The tell me your passion’s gone away
Bb4 Bb
And I don’t need no carrying on

Eb Ab Bb
Stand in the line just ahead of the law
Eb Ab Bb
You’re faking a smile with the coffee you go
Cm Eb/Bb Ab
You tell me your life’s been way off line
Eb/G Fm
You’re falling to pieces everytime
Bb4/7 Bb
And I don’t need no carrying on

Chorus:
Eb
Cause you had a bad day
Ab
You’re taking one down
Fm Bb
You sing a sad song just to turn it around
Eb
You say you don’t know
Ab
You tell me don’t lie
Fm Bb
You work at a smile and you go for a ride

Cm
You had a bad day
Eb/Bb
The camera don’t lie
Ab Eb/G
You’re coming back down and you really don’t mind
Fm Bb
You had a bad day
Eb
You had a bad day

Eb Ab / Bb Ab / x 2

Cm Eb/Bb Ab
Well you need a blue sky holiday
Eb/G Fm
The point is they laugh at what you say
Bb4/7 Bb
And I don’t need no carrying on

Chorus:
Eb
Cause you had a bad day
Ab
You’re taking one down
Fm Bb
You sing a sad song just to turn it around
Eb
You say you don’t know
Ab
You tell me don’t lie
Fm Bb
You work at a smile and you go for a ride

Cm
You had a bad day
Eb/Bb
The camera don’t lie
Ab Eb/G
You’re coming back down and you really don’t mind
Fm
You had a bad day

Eb/G F#
Sometimes the system goes on the blink
B
And the whole thing it turns out wrong
F#
You might not make it back and you know
B
That you could be well oh that strong
Bb4/7 B
Well I’m nog wrong

Eb Ab Bb
So where is the passion when you need it the most

Oh you and I
Eb Ab Bb
You kick up the leaves and the magic is lost

Chorus:
Eb
Cause you had a bad day
Ab
You’re taking one down
Fm Bb
You sing a sad song just to turn it around
Eb
You say you don’t know
Ab
You tell me don’t lie
Fm Bb
You work at a smile and you go for a ride

Cm
You had a bad day
B
It seem what you like
Eb/Bb F7/A
And how does it feel for one more time
Ab Bb
You had a bad day
Eb Ab Fm Bb
You had a bad day
Eb Ab Fm Bb
You had a bad day
Eb Ab Fm Bb
You had a bad day
Eb Ab Fm Bb
You had a bad day

lagunya enak, asik, cuma kok tiap denger jadi sial??
hehehe

setelah 32 jam tanpa tidur
setelah kaki yang ga bisa selonjoran
setelah tangan yang mesti nulis terus
dan otak yang mesti terus berpikir
dan ngantuk waktu kuliah

akhirnya, bantal, guling, kasur, selimut, aku datang…

huehehe

sekarang jam 3.56 AM waktu kamar gua n gua udah bangun lagi.
busyet deh,2 harian ini gua selalu bangun jam segini buat bikin makalh TB yang ga selese2
kenapa juga ya gua mesti bikin. mungkin karena ada challengenya disana?
padahal lebih gampang kalo beli aja (tiketnya bukan yang beratus-ratus atau berjuta-juta kok).
cuma gua ngerasa kalo dng bkn paper, gua pasti terpaksa belajar lebih banyak dari sekedar ikut lecture.. fiuuuhhh, cape sih.. tapi demi kepuasan.. gimana lagi..
mungkin sekarang, jam 3.59 AM tanggal 29 maret 2006, “mahameruku” adalah nyelesein paper ini..
semangathhh!!! YEAHH!!

Kenapa bermanfaat terdengar lebih baik dari dimanfaatin??
Kenapa orang maunya bermanfaat buat orang lain tapi ga mau dimanfaatin orang lain?
Bukannya kalo dia mempunya manfaat, maka manfaatnya harus dimanfaatin sama orang lain supaya manfaatnya bisa bermanfaat buat orang lain.
Seperti maunya orang itu kan, bermanfaat buat orang lain?
Tapi kenapa mesti bete, kenapa mesti kesel kalo lu dimanfaatin orang lain.
Kan kalo lu bermanfaat buat orang lain, berarti manfaat lu bermanfaat buat orang lain
Kalo ga mau dimanfaatin sama orang lain, ga usah belaga mau bermanfaat buat orang lain dong
Tunggu aja sampe lu siap dimanfaatin dan bilang GUA MAU DIMANFAATIN ORANG LAIN, bukannya GUA MAU BERMANFAAT BUAT ORANG LAIN. iya ga?

nothing’s different kan sebenernya
hukum aksi reaksi
lu jual gua beli
bermanfaat dan dimanfaatin

gada bedanya..

terperangkap dalam kemelut kemelekatan dunia

***Your Pimp Name Is…***

Peachy Luv

***On Average, You Would Sell Out For***

$1,118,111

At What Price Would You Sell Out?
http://www.blogthings.com/atwhatpricewouldyouselloutquiz/

***What Your Sleeping Position Says****
You are confident and ready to tackle life.
You are pretty vain and happy with your physical appearance.
You are born to be the center of attention, and you’re unhappy on the sidelines.
You’re always up for trying something new - in and out of bed!

***You should learn Chinese***
Surprised? You shouldn’t be - Chinese is perfect for an ambitious person like you.
You’re a natural entrepreneur, and a billion people are waiting to do business with you!

***Your Luck Quotient: 78%***

You have a high luck quotient.
More often than not, you’ve felt very lucky in your life.
You may be randomly lucky, but it’s probably more than that.
Optimistic and open minded, you take advantage of all the luck that comes your way.

How Lucky Are You?
http://www.blogthings.com/howluckyareyouquiz/

***You Are Lightning***

Beautiful yet dangerous
People will stop and watch you when you appear
Even though you’re capable of random violence

You are best known for: your power

Your dominant state: performing

What Type of Weather Are You?
http://www.blogthings.com/

***You Have a Phlegmatic Temperament***

Mild mannered and laid back, you take life at a slow pace.
You are very consistent - both in emotions and actions.
You tend to absorb set backs easily. You are cool and collected.

It is difficult to offend you. You can remain composed and unemotional.
You are a great friend and lover. You don’t demand much of others.
While you are quiet, you have a subtle wit that your friends know well.

At your worst, you are lazy and unwilling to work at anything.
You often get stuck in a rut, without aspirations or dreams.
You can get too dependent on others, setting yourself up for abandonment.

***Your Blogging Type Is Thoughtful and Considerate***

You’re a well liked, though underrated, blogger.
You have a heart of gold, and are likely to blog for a cause.
You’re a peaceful blogger - no drama for you!
A good listener and friend, you tend to leave thoughtful comments for others.

***You Are Strength***

You represent both fiery energy and steadfast will.
You are innocent and naive - yet unafraid and undaunted.
Perhaps you don’t have the most powerful physical strength…
But your mental powers make up for any amount of muscle.

***Your fortune***

Lately, you have been a pillar of ethics and moral strength.
And while things may be difficult, your faith in yourself will come through.
You may need to conquer the animalistic nature of yourself or others, with gentle force.
Although this may seem like the darkest hour for you, victory is near.

What Tarot Card Are You?
http://www.blogthings.com/whattarotcardareyouquiz/

***You Are a Coy Flirt***

You may not seem like you’re flirting, but you know exactly what you’re doing.
You draw people in, very calculatingly, without them even knowing.
Subtle and understated, you know how to best leverage your sex appeal.
A sexy enigma, you easily become an object of obsession.

***You Are a Glam Rocker!***

You put the “show” in rock show with your larger than life self.
No doubt, you are all about making good music…
But what really gets you going is having an over the top show.
Glitter, costumes, and wild hair are your thing - with some rock thrown in!

What Kind of Rocker Are You?
http://www.blogthings.com/whatkindofrockerareyouquiz/

pintu itu udah kebuka
udah lama..
tapi kenapa anda belum masuk juga?
ya sudah, saya juga belum ingin menutupnya…